Excerpt from week 12, the final week of my online film course:
The following is an interesting paradox:
We dream of such things happening to us—of rising to the occasion, scoring our first film, and doing a splendid job. Then, when some opportunity actually comes along, self-doubt finds a way to slowly creep in and erode some of the confidence we have in ourselves.
I refer to this as SCAD, short for Situational Creative Anxiety Disorder. This is very typical and happens even to established film composers. We must find a way to downplay these doubts and press onward.
So very true!